Recently I found out that a good friend of my mine was chosen to play for a music hero of mine.
On one hand I was really happy for him as we played together on several gigs before and I was fully aware that he is a good guitarist... he deserves it! Well done!
On the other, I was dissapointed and went to sulk-mode. I needed to. I needed to know why. What have I done badly? What could I have done better?
So I seek answers... and I've gotten some. Not all things in life are pleasant :) but in this case, they are certainly necessary.
The comments on my playing in a nutshell is that I don't play the right thing at the right time. Sometimes I go out of timing and make things 'messy'....
While that is a problem I can deal with on its own, but as I dig deeper myself, I realised that this issue permeates across my life:-
- to say the right things and do the right stuff with the right people at the right time!
(that's saying, doing, people and time)
worst, I don't do it! or want to do it. I think innately I don't even try! Arrgghhh... It's shameful to admit this. I would love to think that I get the saying and doing part right more than 50% of the time but even then, I think I get the people and timing part wrong most of the time.
At the moment, I don't know the consequence of my actions (or inactions). On major aspect I feel is the lost of 'gravitas' or 'leadership'. I'm not sure...
I'm praying and learning now... from zero. Will update.
